When you have depression, nothing is the same. You see the world in black and white-and occasionally there’s shades of gray. But never color. Well, maybe with your friends or family drops of color splatter your once dark day.
“The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears. And the kindest hearts have felt the most pain.”
I love this quote, and I put it there because people who have depression hide it. They hide it with smiles and laughs. Usually you never know until they tell you. People who have felt depression don’t want others to feel the same way, so they try their best to make them happy, too. I know this. Why? Because I battle with depression, also. Just remember you’re not alone. But also remember that you must not ever let your depression control you. Or let it win. You control your depression. You make it come or go. You are in charge of how you feel. But sometimes, you just don’t want to go on. You just don’t feel strong.
I have made it my mission that before I die, I’ll try to put a smile on everybody’s face. I’ll make my loved ones laugh. I want to be surrounded of those who love me before I pass away. I know, I know, dying is an awkward and sad subject. But I feel like people who accept the fact that they and everyone around them will die are the people who live life to the fullest. Each second that passes and each breath you take will be gone forever. Your life is controlled by you. You just get used to it. I’m going to die one day. Go on. Think it. Say it. Whisper it. Yell it. Sing it. It’s still true. Now, you have to stay strong.
In depression, remember, and I will repeat this, You. Are. Not. Alone.
People around you may have depression or have been depressed. But the thing is, you can’t let it be your life. You have to let you be your life. You control it.
When you’re depressed, all things have seem to have lost hope. But think of those who love you, cherish you. Think of those who will cry for you, die for you. People love you. And you love them. Well, maybe you love them. But when you’re depressed, you shut off those who love you. You build a wall around yourself. You have no emotion. You wallow in self-pity. You may even go to extremes and try to commit suicide. Don’t. DON’T. NEVER. EVER. HARM YOURSELF. There is only one of you. You are unique. You are special. You are alive. If you were brought into this world, then that’s amazing. There’s a one in four-hundred trillion chance that you were born. The people who love you are now deeply hurt, maybe even more than you hurt yourself with all your troubles and problems. They believe that they did something wrong. They think that you aren’t on Earth anymore because of them. But you aren’t there with them anymore because of you. This isn’t to make you feel guilty. This is to make you think. You are special. You are unique. You are alive. You love. You are surrounded by people who love you. You just build a bubble around yourself. Covered and surrounded by self-pity, tears, and problems.
I want you to stay strong. And I want you to think. Your life is one-of-a-kind, and you are a human being. Solve your problems. Tell a friend. Tell your principal. Tell an adult who you trust. They can help you. And you can help yourself. Note that people who are bullies usually bully because they were once bullied, too. Don’t be one of them. Be the person who grows stronger. Not the one who grows weaker. Life. It’s precious. You take it for granted. Don’t. Don’t destroy it. Life is like a diamond-you can only break it with another diamond. Don’t be that diamond! Be the light that makes it shine. Depression is another diamond. One that only you can mine. The little patch of black inside. But you can dig it out, then destroy it. Destroyit with your own self. Now you have color. You’re strong. You’re loved. And you are you.